Birthday Slut

“When is your birthday?”

I always smile when I answer “At midnight on Halloween.”

It makes people stop and think, it is easier to remember, and sounds much cooler than “November first.” But that’s not why I’m smiling. I am smiling because it makes me think about kink… and cock… and all sorts of sex.

If you’ve been following along, you may already know I usually make a big deal out of my birthday. Not anything like big parties, presents, dressing up, or anything like that. I already get those every year.

You see, when I was little I used to believe that Halloween and trick-or-treating were all just for my birthday. I remember being a little sad when I realized they weren’t.

But it’s my reality, right? And at midnight on Halloween, it’s my birthday, right? So at some point I just decided that pretty much everything in October is just preparation for that moment. Decorations, costumes, parties, candy, caramel apples, pumpkins, warm cider, all of it… became my birthday party. People of all ages, all over, even those I don’t know, celebrate. Perhaps you’ve been to one of my birthday parties. They are always a good time.

No, I’m not completely delusional. Only mostly. And if it isn’t hurting anyone else and makes me happy, what’s the harm? Plus I never have to worry about invitations.

About five years ago, as the leaves began to turn, and the decorations for my birthday began to be put out, I began to ponder my life. I had left the Navy and was poor, but happy, surrounded by my family, doing a job that I love. But something was missing. Some piece of me.

Moving, work, school, and family had taken priority for a very long time. My needs came second. ‘Second’ rarely came. The Slut side of me did not fit into my schedule, and had nearly been forgotten. It was simply a reality of life.

Then the Slut woke up. Ravenous. The schedule was going to change.

Fuck reality.

My reality needed to change first though, and if I was going to alter it I decided I might as well go big. Why not? It was for my birthday after all.

I had been spoiled by my all-you-can-eat buffet of cock while bartending and in the Navy, so just being a run of the mill local bar slut simply wouldn’t do. And I wanted to do something completely new. Dangerous. Scary. Maybe act out some of those crazy fantasies I had always had. I wan’t getting any younger after all.

So I looked deep into my mind. I pulled out one of my darkest, most dangerous desires, and turned it into a possible future. Then I walked, trembling, up to that point of no return, took a deep breath, and crossed that magical line where fantasy becomes reality. Mind that first step though. It’s a free fall.

I enjoyed that birthday so much that I’ve celebrated in a similar fashion each year since. Each year how I celebrate is a gift to myself. This blog is how I share them. And remember them. And learn from them.

The universe within is far greater than the universe without.

Enjoy, if you like.

2009 I arranged to be kidnapped by a stranger, thrown into the back of a van, raped, and beaten for two days.

2010 I decided to take on more than two cocks at a time. So I upped the number to 21, all at once.

2011 I had always wanted to have sex, in public, on display, available for use by anyone. And I couldn’t say “No.”

2012 A charismatic, but dark and mysterious man with a British accent swept me off my feet and owned me with his first touch. Straight out of a romance novel, but with much more pain.

2013 Becoming a complete slave, nearly full time didn’t keep me from playing with other dark fantasies.

2014 This year I got a rare opportunity to go back in time, to visit the first of these stories again. I have changed a lot in five years.

Next year I will be different still.

But I’m not going to wonder or worry about that.

Realities change all the time.

This year, I think maybe I will create a reality where I play with my Domme side more, especially with men. Why not? I am the one in control of my own mind, even if I can’t control any of the rest of the world.

And with this, I have informed all of the rest of my world of just that.

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Now I need accessories. Hmm… I have figured out how to celebrate my birthday all year long! 😉


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