Right Now

Posting a Wanton Wednesday pic always gives me a chance to look back on my past week. This week I do not feel like I have been wanton at all.

I did have a fun Friday, first topping a young lady for real live on Twitter so her Master, my friend, could watch, then an amazing night with my girlfriend in real life. But neither felt wanton. Both felt intimate, personal, and caring. Even being fisted for the first time felt loving, special.

I guess I equate my definition of wanton with how slutty I feel. In that case, this is going to be a boring post. My slut side is tied up right now, struggling against her bonds in the corner. She is screaming “There are not just one, but TWO orgies going on now this weekend!” She is not allowed to make decisions right now.

The submissive and masochist are in charge at the moment. The submissive is happily kneeling and following instructions from her Master. The masochist is thinking “Somebody needs to beat me right fucking now!”, but understands waiting patiently will get that need fed.

There is also now a new voice, a toppy, sadistic voice starting to talk. It surprises me.

So here I am, with this constant struggle going on in my head, squirming, getting through my day. If someone were to ask me what I am feeling right now, I would say this:

A submissive gesture? A scream? A bite? Perhaps a groan, a moan, or a gasp… So many things, all at once.


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4 Responses
  1. mollyskiss says:

    Or is it a beautiful open mouth begging to be filled?

    Mollyxxx
    My recent post Wanton Wednesday a week ago…

  2. Well that is certainly a struggle! Two orgies huh? Damn I clearly don't know the right people.

  3. hubman38 says:

    Or an invitation for me to put my cock in your mouth? 😉
    Fisting? I'd like to hear more about that, we've played around with that, I haven't succeeded in getting all the way into Veronica. But a lady-friend did!

    I hope the internal struggle subsides…

  4. patient says:

    i understand your struggle… i also felt unease there, but my Master has, as always, heard me and He settled my heart. He understands my desires, for all flesh. He understands and He cares for His slave, her needs. He allows me to experience what i need, with His oversight, His approval. It pleases Him greatly for others to please me and for me to bring pleasure to others as well. He is generous and wants me to be satisfied, to expand and to grow. I asked about my submission, when playing with other submissives. It is not in me to be Dominant, but as an extension of Him, i am given liberty to top, even so temporarily. It is a delicious suspension of reality, a short trip into an alternate me, to play with other subs. It is good, to travel outside of oneself. It brings clarity and peace. And when i kneel before my Master, in all honour and love, there is no doubt that my gift to Him is singular and true. His weighty encompassing collar on me my most cherished possession…