It’s My Birthday & I’ll Fuck If I Want To!

Do you have a sexual fantasy you might have second thoughts about if the opportunity actually presented itself?ย 
Answer here.

I am not having second thoughts about living out my gangbang fantasy tomorrow. It is in just a little more than 24 hours. No matter what, I will still show up and live out this amazing opportunity. With that said, I will admit to going through a very wide range of emotions, usually all at the same time.

Everything from giddy glee (Yay! All those cocks just for ME!!) to sheer terror (Oh holy fucking hell! All those cocks are going to kill me!!), and everything in between.

A friend asked last night if I was more scared or excited. I answered as honestly as I could. “Yes.” All of the emotions are so intertwined, I can not separate them. It would be nice if I could just focus on the ‘happy’ ones, but really there is no ‘bad’ emotion. It is just how we respond to them that gives them power.

For me the excitement would not be as intense without the fear. The fact that this is something so far out of my ‘norm’ is the point. I am not sure that makes sense to anyone but me. This is all about one of my Ultimate Fantasies.

Every precaution that can be put into place for my safety has been put into place. I will be supervised at all times by trusted friends not participating. I actually found it comforting to know that there would be law enforcement officers there… but they will be participating. *giggles* The man that organized this for me has been in almost constant contact with me allaying any (realistic) fears as they occur, and answering all new questions as they come up.

So what’s to worry about, huh? Are you fucking kidding me?!?!? LOL! How on Earth am I going to be able to handle all of those cocks?

I have been talking more about the ‘negative’ emotions I have been going through. That is how I deal with them. Share them, say them out loud (or type them out loud), acknowledge them. It removes their power over me. I haven’t been talking much about the ‘positive’ emotions. But oh, they are there… and that part is awesome!!! Plus I don’t like to gloat. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Yay! It’s my birthday, and I plan the most awesome party themes EVER!!!! (While you are waiting to hear about this one, read what I did last year.)

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3 Responses
  1. Dustin says:

    Once again, it sounds like you're going to have a great time. Heather and I wish we could be there, to watch OR participate! ๐Ÿ™‚
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  2. Terese says:

    Oh my, sounds like you will be the birthday cake covered in cum icing….yummy ๐Ÿ™‚ Enjoy your birthday fucks ๐Ÿ™‚