Waiting is hard. Patience is a virtue that I really need some work on.
If I misbehaved at Sir’s and he told me to be quiet and wait, I would. For how long? Until he told me to stop.
Why is it so much harder without his presence?
Slipping into a more submissive mindset is helping. Literally kneeling puts me in a better place. Almost meditative. It is getting easier. It still hurts.
I always hear “breathe” when I am having trouble processing pain.
Is it worth it? Is he worth it? Oh God, yes! I hope I am to him.
Be still… sit… wait… breathe…